Modeling to the Future

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Friday: arrow

Modeling to the Future

Intro:
I know giveing a broad title to this post is wired but I've diecied to do this post on something's I'd like to discuss knowing most of the people who will probly read this I'd like to explain how I got were I am and we're i plane on going after being explained by my instructor on how he wanted this post composed I thought about what to make it about and realized I've never even mention to be here yet I love it .
Modeling:
I came into that class thinking nothing of it I thought it has to do with computers ill finally learn how to type it'll be great every one gets on me for typing so now I won't have to worry but I was wrong while it did improve my typing speed I didn't know it was an art class at all but I Sayed I'd give it a try never being good at art or I was discouraged from trying bc I'd always compare mine with my dad's porfesionl grad art  and growing up with no  computer everything was so new to me I remember the first project I did was a 3 headed monkey I was so shy I kept to my self only being a freshmen and having been pick on in middle school I was scared to speak or voice my opinion when it came time to give crtic this class tought me alot and help me grow as a person and anybody thinking to take it or get in to digital modeling at all anywhere give it a try it's fun and a good outlet.

Animation:
This class was amazing I met two of my best friends here it was lightharted and made me believe in people more never haveing any real friends out side a few making new ones and learning there are people wired as me is great while taking this class I learned key frames and stuff to be honest I don't remember I guess animation didnt take as much interest to me I found it teidous at times but I liked trying it and may experiment with short ones soon like firing a bow or something but back then it was tough for me I barely remembered the commands we learned in modeling how will I remember these on top of that well we didn't really model much we did though make a few things I have not alot to say about this class as I don't remember much all I remember is feeling at ease around people I liked for once nobody was angry or sad and if someone was I garentee they were smiling within a minute made me realize people are good.

Digital portfolio one:
Ok coming in I knew ... 3 maby 4 people I was scared again but with knowing a few people I got comfortable we started with learning hybrity I think I remember banksy film and and artist study some other thing the introduction of blog post witch seemed tedious and some times are but none the less mandatory once we were let free and have chosen our themes I was off and on and off I was struggling everybody thought wow ur pumping out so much work but in actullal it was dull same thing research religion model symbol scuplut with it it was wired I don't know I like it a bit learning mythology and such but I felt like something wasn't there. But a plus side to this year was finding I have a passion for not only modeling but 3d printing as well it was so fun to think i don't even know what interest me about it I was drawn twords it for some reason I'd like to say and I haven't looked back but I have yet again comes the problem with comparing myself to others I keep looking around I had low grade models only designed for printing kinda crappy people I sat around were amazing Ariel was doing photo shop Bato did modeling and animation his car was awesome Kyla did modeling and animation with a cute video doll and even made comics out of it and Keaton oh boy his vr was awesome he always had a vision for something. Also Syria he was so childlike in his imagination it made me feel like I was 5 and Garret I've read some pages he was a wordsmith at finest oh Liam too was an amazing artist oh every one was all of them had there own unique special way and imagination and yet... I felt I didn't I wasn't original or good I modeled print done I felt like they were art God's or something I could never hope to be so like in animation and modeling I came to feel under averge unimagintive I was sad to see my friends leave they were the best people to have as friends but I also looked for to next year this year my finally
Digital portfolio 2 present and future:
Here we are I'm what a month in to school why right something so final on the frist month well I'll tell you now it's not I would love to keep my vision I have in my head right now but I know it'll be gone I've changed so much I used to be so shy and kindly voice was quiter and I was scared to talk sometimes though jazz got an earful I don't like who I am sometimes . It's wierd I hate what I do but it's so impulsive I can't stop it and i know that I act like a pardon me but a**hole because I'm afraid to get close to people in this is deep to say like don't put this on the internet but this post is about what's influenceing me currently and this is i've come to realize I'm only alone and feel lonely bc I'm scared to get close to people that's y I act like this highschool made me more open to people but once they pry behind the curtins I get scared and start being a jerk  all my friends think oh haha yay ur a jerk and think I'm nice but I'm not and I'm not funny I'm scared so this year I want to let that flow out I'm making weapons right now more as a symbol of danger as stay away but no one will ever wield them because i never
Would hurt any one and u e probly noticed how lax my text have become because I'm being honest these classes with out them as an outlet and to teach me to be open and make ferinds I know we're I'd be right now not here.. I've suffered from major depression all my life and this creating art has made me happy call it over due but I want to say thank you mister bomboy for all I've done for me and as for my future I don't know everything's spining I'd love to be a famous artist though I'd love it but I'm afraid I'll crash and burn and that fear makes me want to settel for mediocer but I'm not going to I've diecied at least I hope I have to shoot for it I hope and pray and I'll try my very best because I wanna be a great artist.
Final: I read all of this over I didn't change it bc it all has meaning sorry u have to ready this all and dont make anything wierd I'm just saying my current influnces bc everything I wrote here influnces me now.